Goal Update 3

1. Make it through the next 18 days of working this temp job.
2. Organize all of my notes from the following classes into one folder by subject matter: ANA 109 & 110, NUR 861, 863, 866, 870, 871.  Going to tackle ANA 109 & 110 today FOR REAL.
3. Clean out and organize my dressing table.
4. Finish unpacking my den.  Planning to do this on Tuesday when me and A have the day off together.
5. Clean out and organize my desk.
6. Hang the artwork around the house.  A few more to hang, will finish tonight.
7. Buy a futon.  COMPLETED
8. Get my characters to levels 75 (-31), 25 (-10) & 15 (-7).  Bella is 44, Emi is 15 and Ambree is 8.
9. Read through and test with both of my NCLEX review books.  Pages: (-438).  Have been slacking hardcore on this one!  Ugh I can't seem to keep my focus so I'll have to do some timed reading sessions. [Reinforcing how horrible I am at this!]
10. Save up $500 in cash. When I get paid this week, I plan on putting at least $50 in the piggy bank.
11. Finish reading the Gossip Girl and Luxe book series.  Still waiting on the hold for Rumors.
12. Buy a cookbook and make 5 new recipes. Going to get a cookbook from the library and copy from it, set plan for this is first week of August.
13. Plan out a mini vacation with A.  Waiting on A's work to come out with a schedule so we can see whether or not it's even possible.
14. Work out.  Really want to start doing Slim in 6 again.
15. Finish my video project.
16. Read a bunch of books I've been wanting to read for awhile.  Reading The Giver with A before bed at night, and will be reading Freakonomics on my own.
17. Watch Arrested Development.

NEW GOALS
18. Meal Planner Calendar.  Going to type up and print out the different meals today.

CHANGE OR DIE!!!!!!

Goal Update 2

1. Make it through the next 22 days of working this temp job.
2. Organize all of my notes from the following classes into one folder by subject matter: ANA 109 & 110, NUR 861, 863, 866, 870, 871.  Going to tackle ANA 109 & 110 today.
3. Clean out and organize my dressing table.
4. Finish unpacking my den.  This did not get done because A did not have Thursday off as planned!  However, my friend K came to visit so as a result, we had to move all the junk out of the way and it's still not done, just piled in corners.  Haha.  Want to work on soon.
5. Clean out and organize my desk.
6. Hang the artwork around the house.  We hung pictures that were in the kitchen last week as planned, but there are still a ton in the closet.
7. Buy a futon.  After really thinking about it, I decided to buy a blow up mattress for guests because of two reasons: 1. A futon is expensive, and a used one gives me the creeps, 2. I don't have the space for it in the guest room as I thought with all of the wicker furniture.  COMPLETED
8. Get my characters to levels 75 (-34), 25 (-10) & 15 (-11).  Bella is 41, Emi is 15 and Ambree is 4.
9. Read through and test with both of my NCLEX review books.  Pages: (-438).  Have been slacking hardcore on this one!  Ugh I can't seem to keep my focus so I'll have to do some timed reading sessions.
10. Save up $500 in cash. Because my bank sucks and they transfer funds over every time I have anything over in savings, and I rarely need the overdraft protection.  Very sucky.  So I'm going to have to do this one by saving in a piggy bank it looks like.  I already have a piggy bank + a change keeper, and I stuck some change and stuff in there today.  Gonna keep bills, quarters and dimes in one, pennies and nickels in the other.
11. Finish reading the Gossip Girl and Luxe book series.  Put in a hold at the library to get the next Luxe book in the series, Rumors.
12. Buy a cookbook and make 5 new recipes. I've looked at all kinds of cookbooks, I'm curious about whether or not I should buy a cookbook or just check one out from the library.
13. Plan out a mini vacation with A.  Still working out details - A actually talked to his boss today and requesting time off shouldn't be a big problem.  Going to look
14. Work out.  Have been slacking.
15. Finish my video project.

NEW GOALS
16. Read a bunch of books I've been wanting to read for awhile.  Getting Freakonomics from the library today!
17. Watch Arrested Development.

I thought it might be important to add that I don't really have a strict timeline on these goals, but I would like to get them all done by the end of the summer.

Goal Update

1. Make it through the next 30 days of working this temp job.
2. Organize all of my notes from the following classes into one folder by subject matter: ANA 109 & 110, NUR 861, 863, 866, 870, 871.
3. Clean out and organize my dressing table.
4. Finish unpacking my den.  Set to do this on Thursday, when me and A are both off work.
5. Clean out and organize my desk.
6. Hang the artwork around the house.  Set to do this on Thursday, as well.
7. Buy a futon.  Looking and comparing prices online.
8. Get my characters to levels 75 & 25.
9. Read through and test with both of my NCLEX review books.  Have been slacking hardcore on this one.  Get caught up to the schedule tonight!
10. Save up $500 (-$100) in cash. Transferred $100 over to savings from checking today.
11. Finish reading the Gossip Girl and Luxe book series.  Actually finished the "official" Gossip Girl series, but apparently there is another book out there that's the prequel to the first book in the series, so I'm debating whether or not I've "finished" it or not.
12. Buy a cookbook and make 5 new recipes.
13. Plan out a mini vacation with A. We're discussing a road trip to Texas to visit my mom and some friends.  Probably will be spending at least some of my saved up money on this vacation if it happens.
14. Work out.  Have been slacking.
15. Finish my video project.

Work:
Interestingly enough, my job is not that bad, and I'm finding a lot of things to spend my money on.  I really need to get a good pair of tennis shoes, though.  I honestly think if my feet didn't hurt so bad at the end of the work day, I would almost enjoy the monotony of the job.  No customers, no bullshit, no talking, and after working with the public for years in jobs I didn't like, it's at least nice to nix that out of the equation for once.  Although I'm not sure trading giving up customers is worth giving up air conditioning...
  
Other stuff:
I think I want to get a guided journal and I've been looking on Amazon for some.  The ones that I found that I think I like:
The Self-Esteem Workbook 
The Self-Esteem Guided Journal 

It's not so much that I have super low self-esteem or anything like that, but I do find that I have a lot of internal criticism of myself throughout the day.  I also am prone to letting other people's negativity rub off on me.  I think it would be interesting to go through and do exercises like this for myself to find out a better idea of who I "really" am inside.  A lot of times when I write, I feel so all over the place and don't seem to really get to the point.  A guided journal or workbook can help me focus better.  I was passing the time at work yesterday in my head by listing out good things, things that I like about myself.  I like the positive self-talk I've been doing in my head lately, and I'm hoping that getting one or both of those books would reinforce it.

Recent Small Goals

1. Make it through the next 34 days of working this temp job.
2. Organize all of my notes from the following classes into one folder by subject matter: ANA 109 & 110, NUR 861, 863, 866, 870, 871.
3. Clean out and organize my dressing table.
4. Finish unpacking my den.
5. Clean out and organize my desk.
6. Hang the artwork around the house.
7. Buy a futon.
8. Get my characters to levels 75 & 25.
9. Read through and test with both of my NCLEX review books.
10. Save up $500 in cash.
11. Finish reading the Gossip Girl and Luxe book series.
12. Buy a cookbook and make 5 new recipes.
13. Plan out a mini vacation with A.
14. Work out.
15. Finish my video project.

Monday, March 22, 2010 @ 6:53 pm

Thanks to you guys, seriously.

I guess a part of me feels like I really need to have my act together. You had no idea how serious and uptight nursing school is, especially my nursing school. There are so many hoops we have to jump through if we don't get a 78% on an exam, or if we are 1 minute late to clinical, or if our hair is not properly pulled back in a clip and falls into your face. I know all of it's important, but fuck it is so much stress.

There are so many people in my program in their late 20's and early 30's that are doing the married/babies/house thing and I kind of do want that. It seems like everyone my age is in a sorority and does shit tons of volunteer work, or the girl who does cheerleading and they are so focused and driven. I feel like such a slacker. My clinical group went to the Bahamas, Jamaica, Florida, etc. I stayed at home...slept...posted more than usual on PSC. Read Gossip Girl. Went out to a local pub for St. Paddy's day. So I feel like I don't really fit in with a lot of people in my nursing school because I'm not wild and crazy vacationing and partying...but I'm also not "legitimate" as a married couple with financial independence and all that jazz.

Sunday, March 21, 2010 @ 9:39 pm

A part of me is setting myself up for failure. I haven't even met with anyone to discuss my rental options, and I'm already scared and stressed out beyond my limits. I am scared of getting fucked over, I am scared of being too young, I am scared of being a full-time student on a budget. I think this constant stress of worrying about money and trying to hold my head up high and pretend that I am doing just fine financially is killing me.

My dad is like, "You can ask for money when you need it"...but Dad, I am 22 years old. Part of me feels guilty for the fact that if I had planned my academic life out perfectly, if I had been committed, if I had tried my best, I would have been graduating this semester. Instead I am stuck in college for another year and a half, stuck in an academic environment that leaves me prone to tears and stresses me out on a daily basis.

I can't wait to be financially stable. I don't need to make the kind of money where I can afford a mansion and a sports car - I just want to be able to rent a house for $900/month. I know that when I graduate, I will be at a place where I can do more to get myself out of debt and build my life...I guess I just have to keep my head down and keep plugging until I get there.

I am addicted to peanut butter. There, I admitted it.